lianasvea

a winner is me!

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 20:26:35 GMT

the bold and the beautiful

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 00:16:52 GMT

daikichi amano.

short term/ long term

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 18:32:12 GMT

①learn to play arabesques on the piano.
②grow my nails out without biting them. paint them that transparent color that looks like they are coated it cherry juice.
③earn/ borrow/ steal $100.
④memorize a romantic poem to recite to some far off lover.
⑤lose a dress size [for starters].
⑥watch good films that i haven't seen before. all about lily chou chou because daul kim liked it; honey and clover because the neitzens seem to like it; driving mrs. daisy because ebert seemed to like it; the princess bride because funny people like to quote from it.
⑦illustrate a grimm's fairy tale story.
⑧find work that i enjoy--be it paid or not.

FINISH THINGS. BE PRODUCTIVE. BE A CREATOR, NOT A CONSUMER.
HAVE ENERGY. MAKE PEOPLE LOVE YOU. LOVE YOURSELF.
BE BETTER. AT EVERYTHING.

friday the thirteenth

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 20:54:47 GMT

an exhausting day so far. not terrible, but not particularly good. i thought it was worse than it actually was until i reflected on it now...
lately i have been having this feeling that i am an unlikable person. that i am too loud, or say the wrong things... that people don't want to be around me... and this may just be me being paranoid. but it feels as if i am not pleasing people, when i so desperately want to please people (one of my faults).

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 00:30:11 GMT

i am doing nanowrimo.
i am going to die a long, slow death.
(my account name is liana svea, by the way. add me! because this is myspace!)
so, see you in december! [though i may pop by every once and a while to read comments, etc.]
fondly yours,
♥ liana

happy hallows-eve, halloweenie!

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 19:31:14 GMT

don't step on a crack, or you'll break your mother's back!
don't step on a line, or you'll break your mother's spine!

1リットルの涙

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 23:57:24 GMT

i just finished this drama now. i pretty much marathoned it over the past day.
i think 1 litre of tears has made me cry a good liter of tears. it was incredible. it was well paced and acted. mostly, it struck precisely the right cords in my heart. it made me feel so guilty just for existing. when it finished, i sobbed. maybe this makes me a simple person--i seldom cry for things in media. or, rather than cry, i will feel this is a point where i should cry and almost try to make myself cry. and while seeing this i started crying and i had no idea why.
it has totally validated my career vocation as a nurse. i really want to be there for people who need help. i don't think i can be a surgeon or anything, but i really want to help others feel this.
please see this, or try to. ♥ i really think that if it moved me this much--and i'm not saying that a difficult person to be moved, but this is something that happens to me seldom--that everyone should be affected by it in some manner.

shallow frivolities

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 03:31:53 GMT

ANY ONE WILL DO^

I NEED THEM ALL^

and my current lolita wetdream (way to be totally inappropriate out of context)...

i haven't lusted after any rorita in a long time, so this is kind of... overwhelming?

bright star

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 18:36:33 GMT

such a beautiful movie. the first (of likely many) to make me cry in the theater. they were quiet tears, not heart wrenching sobs, but they were certainly tears...

there were so many shots that were truly lovely and gorgeous that i can't even begin to say...

and i (a superfan of the romantics) thoroughly enjoyed the interspersing of poetry throughout the film. however i never really knew john keats' story, so unfortunately (or maybe not) the ending came as a surprise...

and i think it's the first film i've ever seen the leigh hunt was actually portrayed in...

i want to see it again.

current obsessions

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 03:59:56 GMT

♥ soma

♥ ada lovelace

♥ the warriors

i bet that you look good on the dancefloor!

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 03:41:20 GMT

i have this problem. and i'm sure it's quite a common thing. i have this fear of sharing things, of being like other people. for instance, i have been considering getting a tumblr. but now that everyone has tumblr, i feel as if i would be extraordinarily pretentious to do so. similarly, when bands get popular i often stop listening to them... i like listening to things and liking art and books that no one i know has ever heard of.

at the same time, i feel quite desperate to be accepted, and be a part of the group. i would lie and say i knew about things, etc., so i would seem cool. i want things that other people have, because they have them, not because i particularly want them.

i have always craved popularity, but i am such a solitary and unsociable person by nature i have no idea what i would do with it. but i would always try hard, and envy my friends to which it came naturally. i wondered how they did it, or if there even was a how and they were just predispositioned to it.

my throat feels starched and dry and scream-y

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 18:59:10 GMT

link.

i haven't been posting or commenting regularly lately, have i...? sorry.

it's been back to school as usual. although it's only september, i think i've been doing well thus far. i have gotten some a's on things. i like my teachers almost all of my classes. my chemistry teacher, who i am having for the second time, i think has a vendetta against me.

i have been really frustrated with myself, and everyone else i feel is very frustrated with me.

i often am really spaced out these days. i am not sure if it is an attention deficit thing, or if i am trying to escape the world into my mind. i haven't been very depressed as of late so my mind is turning out to be quite a pleasant place to be.

let's get lost in a romantic mist, let's get crossed off everybody's list

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 19:46:01 GMT

"a new study shows that you're likely to go walking in circles, rather than in a straight line, if you don't have any landmarks to guide you." [link]

i get lost very often, especially on the upper east side. there, everything looks the same to me. i've been forty minutes late to appointments before because of getting lost on the upper east side. unless i'm on museum row, i have no landmarks. i remember last year's lolita day, i was very paranoid about getting to the met on time. of course, amanikitty didn't show up for another half an hour. (i love you amber!)

[link]

take me down to the paradise city where the grass is green and the girls are pretty

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 16:38:17 GMT

yet another summer comes to a close. this past season has felt especially long, but i don't feel that i got anything in particular accomplished... although i am a august birthday girl, i've never felt any particular affinity to summer; i've always preferred winter with it's snuggley blankets and hot cocoa and the nutcracker and snow.

as school starts on thursday (here we go again...) i'd like to dwell on the good things. like martha stewart.

♥ i've learned that the html posting option is a trillion times better than rich text. that took me a while...

♥ rodarte is going to have a line for target?!! by john!! although mcqueen's line for target didn't really live up to any of my expectations, i have a feeling this will. you know who did a good line for target? luella. that was lovely. i was probably about eleven when it happened, though. =///=

♥ this summer's hardy/punk program on smackdown! it was so refreshing after, i don't know, five years of hhh/john cena/randy orton. and jeff hardy is kaput (for now at least)! and cm punk is a brilliant heel. and now he is feuding with the undertaker. i can die a happy wrestling fan now. well, after edge comes back from his ankle injury. if he does.

♥ i am now the proud owner of my own digital camera. probably because my parents were sick of me busting their electronic devices, but nonetheless. it's a sexy looking navy canon powershot a480, and it is fabulous.

lately i've been very into slavic mythology. like the wila, which were the slavic version of nymphs. they were many times believed to be the spirits of females who spent their lives frivolously or died before they married and were now trapped in a sort of limbo. often, they were cursed to spend their entire lives looking for love, only to have their lover die when they found it. they could appear as swans, horses, or beautiful maidens.

today is my birthday

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 19:33:42 GMT

and my grandmother called me fat. what is it with grandmothers? i guess, when you get old enough, you can get away with saying anything without any recourse.

Writer's Block: Fantasy Sports

Tue, 04 Aug 2009 15:45:55 GMT

Imagine you manage a coven of baseball-playing vampires. The Cullen family is really strong this year and you want to bring in a ringer. Which currently active MLB baseball player do you sire?

Submitted By seannau

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really, now.

since when, exactly...?

Thu, 30 Jul 2009 15:20:52 GMT

the best part about harry potter and the half blood prince...

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 21:13:07 GMT

okay, so i didn't out to see the movie on opening night in three-dee in costume (*cough*nylota *cough*) but i did get around to finally seeing it last night with my mother and father at the regal. i liked harry hitting on the waitress in the beginning, i liked the sequence with katie bell because it was how i imagined it in the books and was filmed very beautifully, i liked what they did instead of the shoot out/ funeral, and i liked that it assumed that you were a fan and knew what they were talking about. however, that said, a lot of things (tonk's mouse-y hair, the goddamned horcruxes) made little sense even to those who had seen all the movies and were purely book things and i think that was a bit of a problem.

i saw alan cumming at the coffe shop at dinner prior to the film. midnight snack, anyone?

i'm happy i wasn't the only one who saw lolita on pbs last weekend (you know you're not when pbs has .gifs of it the next day). my father said he saw it as a date movie at an art house in the 70's. he also took his dates to see the little mermaid.

i've been on with a versailles kick lately (don't judge me!) and kamijo's engrish = （・Ａ・） [have you looked a the lyrics for "the revenant choir"?!] i feel like i'm 11, listening to visual kei all the time again. (my path to goth lolita was as follows: ff vii at a friends house > googling ff vii > googling cloud > gackt > malice mizer [visual kei in general] > mana > lolita. although i watched sailormoon as a kid constantly, i've never been an anime fan really. still, i know more about it than the common person by association. now... i mean, i read some more stylistic shoujo stuff (sakuran, count cain, takaya miou, yazawa ai) but besides that it's never been my thing. but i'm still "otaku by association." i still go to anime conventions, etc., i can hold a conversation about bleach for a couple of seconds (though i have no idea what the fuck one piece is about).... just thinking....

a public service announcement...

Thu, 23 Jul 2009 19:40:03 GMT

courtesy of the gaurdian (gaurdian.co.uk)

In a scene which appears to have been lifted straight out of Ray Bradbury's Fahrenheit 451, a group of Christians in Wisconsin has launched a legal claim demanding the right to publicly burn a copy of a book for teenagers which they deem to be "explicitly vulgar, racial [sic], and anti-Christian".

The offending book is Francesca Lia Block's Baby Be-Bop, a young adult novel in which a boy, struggling with his homosexuality, is beaten up by a homophobic gang. The complaint, which according to the American Library Association also demands $120,000 (£72,000) in compensatory damages for being exposed to the book in a display at West Bend Community Memorial Library, was lodged by four men from the Christian Civil Liberties Union.

Their suit says that "the plaintiffs, all of whom are elderly, claim their mental and emotional well-being was damaged by this book at the library," and that it contains derogatory language that could "put one's life in possible jeopardy, adults and children alike."

"The word 'faggot' is very derogatory and slanderous to all males," the suit continues. "Using the word 'Nigger' is dangerously offensive, disrespectful to all people. These words can permeate violence." The suit also claims that the book "constitutes a hate crime, and that it degrades the community".

"They've filed a claim against the city of West Bend and the city has to decide if it is valid," said Deborah Caldwell-Stone, acting director of the ALA's office for intellectual freedom. "Their insurance company is evaluating the claim, but I would be very surprised if they found any merit in it ... Should they find any merit in this claim, we would certainly support the library in fighting it."

The legal challenge follows a lengthy campaign by some West Bend residents to restrict access to teenage books they deemed sexually explicit from library shelves, which was eventually thrown out at the start of June.

"Obviously we were really pleased with the outcome to that – there was a unanimous vote to keep the books in the library and we thought the matter should be over," said Larry Siems, director of the Freedom to Write programme at PEN America.

Siems said there was clearly "a bit of theatre" in the lawsuit which followed. "They've filed a lawsuit which has little possibility of going forward legally, and they're asking for damages which include the right to burn a book. It does seem more to gain publicity than a real serious challenge." But, he said, PEN remained very concerned about the impulse behind the claim. "This is a group of people trying aggressively to rid the library of these books and that's very serious - it needs to be fought."

The claimants, he said, "have a right to continue to express their views, and this in a way is a creative attempt to express those views". But it's "also a dangerous game when you're talking about something like book burning, calling on the law to burn books. It's certainly completely un-American, and if they paused, I think they would agree."

It was not possible to reach the Christian Civil Liberties Union for comment.

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burn your bridges while you can

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 21:16:39 GMT

there appears to be two japanese-operated places that do nails in the city; sakura and shizuka. some of the korean places do some pretty hardcore stuff too. there was this set of gem covered nails (completley coated with crystals, not just tactfully placed on the tips) in cawaii that i would make for myself if i had the crafting ability.

tonight my family and i are going to see the new york philharmonic in the park. it should be very nice; there are fireworks. i have only heard the tchaikovsky before, but that is because i adore tchaikovsky.

how i've spent my summer vacation (so far), by yours truly

Sat, 11 Jul 2009 22:15:13 GMT

i spent july touring colleges. i did it with a new york-based scholar-y program (along the lines of "prep for prep"), not with my family. we saw all of the ivy leagues (along with twenty-odd other schools) and all i could think to myself was you are inadequate! the entire time. i've decided that i want to become a nurse. with all of my hospital experince, i've learned that a good nurse can make all of the difference. doctors may barely remember your name most of the time.

i've been reading. well, nothing particularly literary, though i started out with very good intentions. i began my summer with pride and prejudice (a reading requirement for next year's english course), which very quickly spiraled into:

secrets of a summer night
then came you
dreaming of you (all by lisa kleypas)
the duke and i
the viscount who loved me
what happens in london (all by julia quinn)
and the first four sookie stackhouse mysteries.

my mother keeps trying to make me feel ashamed of myself for reading nothing but smut; it isn't working. speaking of shame, an npr story on a man who enjoys categories of all things, and a usa today report on how romance authors are merely harvard grads led astray.

and... that has been it. i have not a) gotten a job b) gone to the gym c) started a diet or d) done anything else of value thus far.

well, then.

back to the internet.

because the internet never goes on summer vacation.

it is totally "kings of the wild frontier" over at the alice and the pirates fashion show.

versus

if anything can be both simultaneously awesome and terrible, this is it.

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every morning when i wake up

Tue, 07 Jul 2009 14:57:48 GMT

i think otis is trying to get through michael jackson's death by listening to pantera. (?!)

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 17:57:08 GMT

Leave me a comment saying "DIFFICULT, DIFFICULT, LEMON DIFFICULT."
I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can get to know you better. Update your journal with the answers to the questions. Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.

my questions from skyewishes :

1. What are some of your favourite song lyrics?
off the top of my head, daphne descends by smashing pumpkins. (full lyrics, studio, live)

With the sugar sickness
You spy the kidnap kid
Who kids you to oblivion
It's the perfect hassle
For the perfumed kiss
He makes you miss him more than home

2. How many places/houses have you lived in during your life?

two, both in the bronx. once in an apartment in marble hill--the house i live in presently i have for over eleven years.

3. Do you have any unusual phobias or pet peeves?

i hate the sound that the binding of thick paperback books make when they are rubbed together.

4. Favourite fairy tale?

beauty and the beast. (elaborated upon here).

5. Describe your dream house?

a house in the woods where nobody could ever find me. deer that visit me in the back yard, wildflowers that bloom beneath rocks and through tree roots in vivid shades of violet and yellow. on the outside it would be dilapidated and shingled, but inside it would be magic. rooms filled with books and bones and rococo chairs and birdcages with parakeets and robins and bluebirds. windchimes and mobiles hanging from the ceiling in clusters. empty perfume bottles, hung clothing throughout the rooms. a bed with lacy white sheets and siamese cats beneath the covers. a place where i could be a witch, or a princess. but that is merely what i think right now.

on micheal jackson's death thursday

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 02:26:58 GMT

i have a twin brother named otis, and he is six-foot-one and over 250 pounds. he is also autistic.

now, my brother isn't a savant in the sense that he can tell you the moon phase the day you were born, or calculate your tax returns in under thirty seconds. he memorizes musical trivia. now this may be due to the fact that we are lucky enough to live in a very musically encouraging family, with over 2,000 of my father's records at our disposal, but that is kind of irrelevant.

at any given prompt, my brother can spew out musical trivia or quotations. you were born on november 4? that was bob dylan's first concert at carnegie hall. would you like some kool-aid? because kurt cobain's hair was stained with kool-aid and dirt during his appearance at mtv unplugged on november 18, 1993. (seriously, y'all. this is verbatim)

like any other person, my brother has favorites. they most certainly run more extensive than the average mortal, however they are favorites just the same. rush, kiss, van halen... they all rank on the top of his heavy rotation list. but micheal jackson is different. micheal jackson is to otis what l. ron hubbard must be like to the most zealous scientologist. my brother was a devout follower of micheal jackson's every word--if they were spoken out of his mouth, they became canon scripture. as a child, my brother ran around the house in a loofa glove suddy with bubbles (causing a sparkling sort of effect) and a plastic hat he wore so long that he had an affected tan line. my brother dreamed of seeing his tour in london, and as of recent spoke of nothing but it.

now knowing his notorious history, micheal was not always the most positive role model for my brother to emulate. the years of the baby dropping and child molestation charges were hellish. on top of that, otis' ramblings of "mj" were so overwhelming that we eventually instituted a semi-moratorium on even the mentioning of his name (sometimes we called him "he who must not be named"). i can only somewhat vaguely remember a childhood filled with repeated viewings of moonwalker, and bad playing in the car. but trying to get otis not to break out into billie jean in the supermarket is a part of my daily life.

however, it is only in his death that can i truly get to appreciate what an omnipresence micheal jackson has had in my life. i know his discography from the back of my hand, and my friends have recently treated me as a bard of jacko trivia. my brother is distraught--one one hand, he is overjoyed to have such an overwhelming cornacopia of micheal jackson thrown at him at once with no holds barred, but on the other he is devestated with the death of his idol. people who knew otis called us as soon as they discovered the news. for some people, micheal jackson's death was a vehicle to reminisce, to me it was only a reiteration of a facet of my daily life.

... i know that is kind of longwinded (and a day late), but after having such a major part of my family's life, i wanted to get something out there.

for the record, my favorite songs are "smooth criminal," "wanna be startin' something," "don't stop 'till you get enough," and "stranger in moscow." my favorite video is "leave me alone."

[somewhat edited for coherencey]

Writer's Block: Grimm Question

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 17:47:50 GMT

What was your favorite fairy tale as a child?

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i am a very big fairytale fan. i collect books of fairytales, buy my lolita based on its' fairytale... i think a lot of my perspective on life and the arts has been particularly shaped by this interest.

as a child i particularly enjoyed beauty and the beast, especially because of the extensive detailing on the rooms and how it was romantic in a dark way. now i especially like the darker versions of fairytales, especially the italian red riding hood (it is referenced throughout the film jin roh: wolf brigade). when i was still pezzazz i did a pretty extensive post purely waxing lyrical on red riding hood. it is just such a classic tale of innocence (not nessicarily good) versus evil.